Perfect
People
‘There’s no
such thing as perfect people
There’s no
such thing as a perfect life
So come as
you are, broken and scarred
Lift up your
heart and be amazed, and be changed
By a perfect
God’
This is an
excerpt from Natalie Grants song ‘Perfect People”
How many of
us try to live this illusive perfect life?
I admit it. I do. I try and try until I just want to collapse
under the weight of the lie.
By no means
am I perfect. I am so very far from
perfection and yet I have a desire to pretend to be. What is up with that?!
I truly
desire a perfect life. I want the
perfect, well -behaved children, the perfect husband. I want to over hear my husband telling
another how perfect a wife he has in me.
And don’t forget the perfect house and the perfect décor that goes with
it; the perfect vehicle to fit in the garage of that perfect house. Whew!
Are you exhausted as I am just reading my “perfect “list?!
So I ask
myself, “Where does this desire of perfection come from?” I am about to get raw here, so hang
tight. As a child, I always felt lesser
of a person to everyone else except in the eyes of my parents. My parents esteemed me to the hilt which I am
grateful for. However, I did not know
how to cope with those who did not see me as the greatest. I am not placing blame on anyone; it’s just
how I felt. Knowing what I know now, our
feelings can distort what truth is.
I’m sure people did not think I was the
greatest, but so what? I did not have
enough self confidence at the time to ask myself, “How does God see me?” If I knew to ask that question every time I
was teased at school or looked down upon by another, this would be the
outcome. I would ask myself, “What does
God think of me?” I would look in His
Word, His Truth, to find the truth about myself. God created me for a purpose and He created
me in His image. However, He is perfect,
I am not. God loves us even though we
are far from perfect. That is why God
sent a perfect Savior, Jesus, to help perfect us on a daily basis.
But what I
heard when I was a child growing up in a Catholic church was that God was
perfect and we are not. Period. Either
they left out the rest of the message or I chose to not hear about letting
Jesus help us change from day to day, moment by moment.
So I went
about life trying to be perfect on my own, in my own limited way that I knew
how. Oh how limited it was. I strived to make good grades and yet never
conquered my procrastination. I strived
to be a good friend and yet never stopped gossiping. I strived to be a loyal girlfriend and yet
never stopped my roaming eye. I wanted
to be the best at these things and more, but I did not know that I needed
someone much more powerful than me to help me conquer the inadequacies in my
character. I did not know to ask Jesus
for help. Thankfully now I do and He has
changed me. I am so thankful that He
changed many dysfunctional things in my character before I met my husband, who
is not perfect, but completely perfect for me.
I still have
many inadequacies and I am not cured from the desire to be perfect. I don’t know if I really will ever be in this
life. But I am aware when that desire to
be perfect tries to creep up much
quicker than before. I try my best to
take it to God every time and ask Him to help me see my wonderful, flawed life. Thankfully, God opens my eyes to see all the
humor my life with three active children and a loving, adventurous husband brings.
Life is such
a cool journey. When we feel life is not
cool but instead exhausting, maybe we should ask ourselves, “Are we being real?” Or are we just trying to be “perfect”?
My challenge
to you is, ask God to open your eyes to things you may have never seen before
in your life. Strive to enjoy your life
as is, not as you think you wish it to be.
“As for God,
His way is perfect. All the Lord’s
promises prove true. He is a shield for
all who look to Him for protection. God
is my strong fortress. He makes my way
perfect.” 2 Samuel 22:31-33
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